The floating adapter
Everyone belongs to a specific group/category. We have that click of friends that we fit in with and people recognise who are because they know who we hang out with. I have experienced this myself over the years, though now I don't really belong to any social group.
Maybe it's me becoming more mature or I've gotten so use to adapting to what I'm presented with that I have the capability of blending in with whatever group I'm with. Or maybe I just have gotten use to constant change of the groups I've had over the years. But me, now, personally, I feel like I don't belong in any group. It could be it's cause I'm so different from everyone else mentality or because I feel that I deserve much better and want to stand out. Sadly, I'm not sure which it is or what it could be :/
All that I know and that I've noticed is that in any group I do hang/go out with, I do stand out. Thinking about it actually makes me giggle. In most groups I hang with, I'm the guy with the dark skin, so it's already something different considering that I usually hang with people with whiter skin then mine (not that I'm racist, but in the country I live in, most people are white). But that to me has become something common. I've noticed that the people I hang with change my attitude, obviously, and most of the time they bring out the best within my attitude itself.
However, lately I've noticed something else. Maybe it's because I'm finally standing up for myself or I'm more driven to reach my goals, whatever they may be. But now, everything seams to have....upgraded. It's difficult to explain. A simple example is my attitude towards everything or even the cloths I wear and how I wear them. Lately I've realised that even the simplest things I do actually have my own personal touch in them and this makes me happy knowing that I've left my mark. Or maybe it's this hunger for more, more me, more expressing and showing of me and who I am.
I think everyone reaches that point in life were it's you and just you you focus on. Obviously, with the re-reinforced encouragement and feedback from both friends and family, regardless whether you consider it or not. I personally think I've reached that stage in the last few days.
Anyone else been through the same experience as me?
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Maybe it's me becoming more mature or I've gotten so use to adapting to what I'm presented with that I have the capability of blending in with whatever group I'm with. Or maybe I just have gotten use to constant change of the groups I've had over the years. But me, now, personally, I feel like I don't belong in any group. It could be it's cause I'm so different from everyone else mentality or because I feel that I deserve much better and want to stand out. Sadly, I'm not sure which it is or what it could be :/
All that I know and that I've noticed is that in any group I do hang/go out with, I do stand out. Thinking about it actually makes me giggle. In most groups I hang with, I'm the guy with the dark skin, so it's already something different considering that I usually hang with people with whiter skin then mine (not that I'm racist, but in the country I live in, most people are white). But that to me has become something common. I've noticed that the people I hang with change my attitude, obviously, and most of the time they bring out the best within my attitude itself.
However, lately I've noticed something else. Maybe it's because I'm finally standing up for myself or I'm more driven to reach my goals, whatever they may be. But now, everything seams to have....upgraded. It's difficult to explain. A simple example is my attitude towards everything or even the cloths I wear and how I wear them. Lately I've realised that even the simplest things I do actually have my own personal touch in them and this makes me happy knowing that I've left my mark. Or maybe it's this hunger for more, more me, more expressing and showing of me and who I am.
I think everyone reaches that point in life were it's you and just you you focus on. Obviously, with the re-reinforced encouragement and feedback from both friends and family, regardless whether you consider it or not. I personally think I've reached that stage in the last few days.
Anyone else been through the same experience as me?
Please copy and paste the link in the address bar/click the link below if you like my work. Thanks :)
http://cur.lv/63v2f
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